Archive for October, 2003

I got my copy of Panther, installed it.

I’m quite thrilled. Apple has out done themselves once again, and I’ve only been using it for a little while.

I must have learned too much while I was reading up on Enron’s failures. I just got paid today. for a while I have been trying to pay down my debts, so what I do is put all my bills in, subtract an amount to allow for “incidental” expenses, then put the rest toward a credit card payment. But, what I’ve been doing is playing the float on my checking account/Line of Credit Overdraft so when I get to the end of a two week period I’m “overdrawn” from my cash balance, thus spending money that I didn’t intend to spend.

So here is the remedy, declared in public to prevent myself from “bending” my rules. The rules are:

1. My Line of Credit must not have any transfers into my checking account.
2. I must not spend past my “cash” balance.
3. All purchases must continue to be made and accounted for on a cash only basis. (i.e. No credit usage)

To achieve this I am going to:

1. Enter all transactions ASAP
2. Remove as many unnecessary transactions as possible.
3. Place a note of my cash balance within my wallet

If these goals and guidelines are not followed or met my punishment will be:

1. Suspension of all coffee shop purchases for two weeks.

Crazy? Probably. At least a good idea? Yes. Will it work? Stay tuned.

I have a crush on a “straight” guy at work.

I do want to tell him, because well I think he might actually be open minded to dating.

But, this is my fucking problem. (to paraphrase Chasing Amy)

I’m not quite sure how fair it is for me to even tell him.

Annoying deliberations will follow in my head

Why be out and proud?

Being out to those around you and in any situation where appropriate (appropriate being where any average hetroattracted person would mention their husband, boyfriend, or sexual attractions.) is fundamentally just being honest with yourself and the world. In an ideal world being out would be the expected norm and being in the closet would be a dishonest despicable deception. But, we do not live in an ideal world, ergo there are situations where being in the closet are acceptable and understandable.

This brings us to pride. When one thinks of pride, scenes of same-sex mardi grases proliferation the world during the month of June abound. It is unfortunate that pride has been co-opted into an excuse for a drunk party. But, at its core pride events are just an extension of being out.

They are being out publicly, in a group reaffirming your identity in a shameless way.

It is as if like Howard Beale in Network we’re collectively screaming “I’m as mad as hell, and I’m not going to take this anymore!“

but should pride be separate from being out? As a festival the June events should exist as a celebration of history and the ability to be out. But, everyone should be proud everyday, as a component of healthy living we all must be out and proud of who we are, regardless of our sexual attractions or any other trait.

We as well as our communities deserve that much respect.

to me! Emails, iTunes gift certificates, Amazon Gift Certificate, as well as cash are all appreciated!