On Connections

I don’t believe in fate.

I don’t believe in predestination

I hold firm to the concept of free will, although I have a diminishing level of belief that its a absolute solid state and that we actually have complete control over ourselves all the time.

I’ve probably confused all my readers at this point, and they’re all wondering what I’m smoking. Don’t worry I’m getting a drug test for a new job in a week.

One would like to explain tonight away as a series of coincidences. It seems too perfectly planned to chalk it all up to coincidences.

I don’t want to go into details, but I ended up staying up later than I planned and helping a friend in the only way I knew how who did and didn’t want help. I spent about half an hour on two separate phones helping in the only way I knew how. When I got off the phone I was alone an confused. I didn’t know of anyone who I could reach out to to help understand my confusion. Then an online friend came on. After telling her my situation she said “Perhaps that is it. I woke up with the sensation that something is terribly not right.”

I cannot explain this with the current scientific knowledge that we have. I do not and cannot honestly believe in a god figure. I agree with George Carlin’s Rant:

But, I gotta tell you the longer you live, the more you look around, the more you realize something is fucked up. Something is wrong here, war, disease, death, destruction, hunger, filth, poverty, torture, crime, corruption, and the ice capades. Something is definitely wrong. This is not good work. If, this is the best god can do I am not impressed. Results like these do not belong on the resume of a supreme being. This is the kind of shit you’d expect from an office temp with a bad attitude. And just between you and me in any decently run universe this guy would have been out on his all powerful ass a long time ago… (CD: You are diseased Track: There is no God)

Yeah. There is no god. But there must, there has to be something else that connects us, one to one, individually in a vast network that we cannot see or detect with scientific equipment but none the less it exists.

I posit this hypothesis not on one incident but upon many of observing both myself and others.

And yes I am completely sober (except for a small dose of caffeine, but everyone does that.)