Archive for September, 2004
Me: my theory
Me: I’d rather work in evenings but 2nd shift sucks because you blow your whole day away
Me: 1st shift. ick
Me: I hate getting up in the morning
Jen: I think mom would prefer third or first
Jen: since she’s up
Me: 3rd shift AAAHHHHHhhhhhh… (good ahh, not a bad ahh which would be typed AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! not AAAHHHHHhhhhhh… yeah I know there isn’t much of a difference but you know what the hell, i’m just being anal and techinal and thats one of the things you like me for isn’t it? well if not it should be, because well yeah I am. And if I’m not who would I be. And if I wasn’t me i’d be someone else in which case you might not like me because I wouldn’t be me and I’d be someone not me. But if I were someone not me the whole logic of the world goes out the window, but if the whole logic of the world goes out the window does logic really matter in the first place. Besides we’ven’t actually chosen a logical system that everything is going to work on. there are lots of wacky logical systems that exist … especially meridith.. its a strange piece of crap that well I don’t wanna touch. but well you know I think I’ve typed quite a enoug
I’ve been telling myself for quite a few days that I need to write a blog entry.
Its not that I’ven’t had ideas to write entries I’ve just not written them.
I’m going to put down a dream I don’t want to forget, a deed, and one thought and call it a night.
I had a dream I was talking on the phone with Shawn he didn’t recognize me. I don’t remember feeling hurt or really anything, perhaps just a bit shocked. Really this is a valid point from my sleeping self. I don’t know him and he doesn’t know me.
I did a random act of kindness last week and saved a guy a bunch of hassle. Its nice that Oprah arranged to have several million dollars of cars given away. It would’ve been nicer if she did it without the fanfare.
I’ve been lying to a bunch of people recently about mundane things. Its dishonest to them, but its more of a white lie for myself. I’m not sure what I should do about it..
One of my recent endeavors has been watching Star Trek: Deep Space Nine from the beginning and in order.
I’ve been accomplishing this through my Netflix 2-at-a-time membership. Which means at maximum I could make it through half of a season in a month. (4 DVD’s x 4 episodes per DVD=12 episodes. 12 episodes/26 episodes a season = about 1/2 a season.)
I just made it through the end of the second season. Arguably this is when the series began to hit its stride. The aborted story lines and relationships have been shaken out and we’re beginning to see the seeds of the larger story of Deep Space Nine that would play out in the later seasons.
But onto the point. I was watching the “extras” part of the last DVD in the second season. Most of the interviews from the extras section were filmed during 2002, about three years or so after production on the series wrapped. There is this sense of loss and a fond memories from the show that comes through in the interviews.
It sounds strange and pathetic, but I miss Deep Space Nine. In some ways they, the characters, actors, crew, and writers feel like family.
I miss being a part of a family. This is not to say I’m not currently family less. All of my immediate relatives are all still alive, kicking and annoying me. (not always annoying me, but ya know family does that sometimes) But we’re no longer the nuclear family, all together in the same house, having dinner at the same table every night. We’ve progressed beyond the house reactor, having melted down and radiated along a latitude through the midwest into our components.
I can name a plethora of families that I’ve been part of at one time or another. Middle and Upper School at Miami Valley was a family for me for quite sometime, Lambda Union was a family that I was with for almost three years, Horizon Theatre‘s Negro Dance Lesson was my family during summer 2002, CSD Relay’s third shift was my family during 2003.
But, right now I feel family-less. Its not to say I don’t have friends, or friends of friends, that almost resemble families, but they lack the key quality I’m looking for — fellowship, a common bond that brings us all together.
I dunno. I want something more permeant than a job, or a theatre production that’ll end soon.
Now for a completely different topic, but somehow related in my mind.. I received this email a few days ago:
Date: Fri, 17 Sep 2004 07:53:38 -0400 (EDT)
From: jane <firstname.lastname@example.org>
Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
jane: email@example.com on Friday, September 17, 2004 at 07:53:38
content: are you a sad idiot or what. do you actually get paid to do this? be boring and weird?!!!!!!!!
HTTP_USER_AGENT: Mozilla/4.0 (compatible; MSIE 6.0; Windows NT 5.1)
Since this wonderful person decided not to leave a proper email address and in some way this pisses me off here it goes………..
First, its my website, no I don’t get paid to do this… I actually pay a pretty decent chunk of change to run my website. Second, if you don’t like my Web Place go find something else like dildo practice or something to entertain yourself, as apparently this isn’t your cup of tea, don’t be a bitch and cut me down. I don’t need it, it doesn’t do anything and yeah, I’m weird I know that, boring?? Just fuck off.. thats all I have to say.
Okay I’ve been really really good at finishing nothing lately. So first I’m going to finish the following entry then lay out some goals publicly for myself.
Why do I want to be billed on my credit card?
With your authorization, we charge your credit card (or debit card, if you wish). Phone companies aren’t very good at billing; banks and credit card companies are. So you are likely to get charged correctly by us by using your credit card. Also, in using your card, you aren’t beholden to any particular phone company making it possible for you to receive our service from just about any phone.
Given my Cincinnati Bell bill I now know what they’re talking about. I don’t want to go into a full analysis of the issues, but the “one time charges and adjustments” section is a complete clusterfuck, and more or less has been since I’ve been a customer of theirs… I wish I had some viable alternatives.
And one more thing they need to clearly state what time period the bill covers.
Okay enough about Cincinnati Bell.
Things that need to be done today:
- Blog about the debates, before reading any other blog entries.
- Finish my blog entry about my <sarcasm>thrilling</sarcasm> Friday night research.
- Clean my room, the rest of the apartment has been cleaned and it now looks like pig sty.
- Consider doing the laundry.
- Wash the dishes. (no considering about this, they need to be done)
- Look up my 7th and 8th grade English teacher and ask for her to give the lesson on subject-verb agreement to George W Bush. I am embarrassed to have as the leader of our country someone who lacks the ability to speak it at the college level, despite graduating from Harvard.
- Blog about recent rodentesque road kill.
- And do some more work on my recent programming project, currently called X.cgi