January 29, 2004
Here I Stand
Confusion is the root of understanding.
I just saw Convenience for the second time and I've listened to it several hundred more times.
Its It is so complex but so simple at the same time. Convenience is an excellent piece of art which you can enter from any point, explore and find a philosophy or suggestion for living.
I keep trying to extract a concrete nugget from it to apply to myself. I never get a concrete substance only a fleeting essence. But, I think it has already worked its way through me, without being self-evident.
Three hundred and sixty three days ago, I choose not to crawl, not to go forward. These words make it self-evident that I have crawled and I am almost standing at a point where I can start walking again.
It is nowhere near any of the pictures I've painted but the canvas is the same, and you can see parts of the previous pictures still poking through.
I am standing, here.