January 20, 2006
Feedback
I think one of those things that is hardest for me coming from the theatre/geek tech background I've got, is not giving feedback. I always want to tell people what I think as politely as possible. (Okay, sometimes if they don't get my point I'll be downright rude to get their attention, but I really try to be a polite bird.. eerr guy.)
What perplexes me about work is I can't get enough feedback, I'm literally begging for people to give me feedback. Its frustrating.
In the theatre I would at least get feedback such as "It was good" or "I enjoyed it." These comments really annoyed me. I wanted details, specifics, what people especially liked, and what they hated.
In my view of things, we owe this to each other as humans: to provide feedback so we can all better ourselves.
So you can understand my frustration when I get an email from someone who is a few rungs above the ladder from me writes "There is not going to be any discussions with me involving a critique this document or any aspect of the management of this project." I'll fully admit that I'm pissed about how the project was implemented and designed and what we've gotten out of it. And I'll admit I went a little over the top with this person.
Perhaps this is something that is wrong with American business: That people cannot and will not take criticism and feedback. I think one of the driving forces behind TQM, Six Sigma, etc is feedback. You cannot get better if you can't see whats wrong. And you cannot see what wrong on your own. Freud said "In self-analysis the danger of incompleteness is particularly great. One is too soon satisfied with a part[ial] explanation." I cannot be fully aware of what I'm doing wrong, so I depend and rely on others to tell me.
Speaking of which I fully expect to get some borderline nasty comments about this entry. I've been asked to work on one of our internal non-profit's website, so the site URL is going out to the group leader. So, its conceivable that this non-Freud person mentioned above could end up reading this. To that person, I've been open and honest, and I apologize for my occasional unfairness and disrespect.
January 31, 2006
Quick Procrastination
This needs to be quick because I'm quite tired..
I need to stop procrastinating. Its getting to the point that procrastination has worked its way into everything, work, school (I'm not really quite sure I ever was caught up on classes), doing my laundry, doing dishes, etc.
Procrastination is creating a debt to be repaid in the future. If I don't do something now, I've borrowed time from myself in the future to get it done. It really is no different than charging something on a credit card (that is a different blog entry though); It even has interest. I've pulled a couple all nighters just because I wanted to get some school work done. All nighters on work nights... That is really messed up and creates a bit of a bitch of a day.. Speaking of which ...zzzzz