Nick's Place

Nicholas Barnard Self Analysis Paper TA: Sandy Jewett

1. I am 20. I was born in Hollywood, Florida. I grew up in Binghamton, New York. I currently live in Miami Township, Ohio with my mother and grandmother. I am a Design Technology/Stage Management major. Professionally I want to work in the theatre in any aspect; I feel Stage Management is the best theatrical position for me. I am a gay guy; I am quite comfortable with myself, I'm just not sure about the whole dating thing. (It took me those seven or so years that most people figured out dating to come to grips with myself, so I sort of feel a bit behind the curve.)

2. If you entered my living space, you would most probably first be confronted by (a.) a floor well covered by books, papers, and bags of recently purchased items. I am continually battling this “floor organizational method,” but I consider it indicative of me, as I feel I always have things overflowing in both my school, work, and personal life. (b.) Prominently featured is my computer, which I spend lots and lots of time on. While I'm not sure if I was attracted to computers because they were logical, or I was shaped by computers to think logically; I am a highly logical thinker. (c.) The third thing you would see would be the couch pull out bed, which sort of states the integration of all aspects of my life - my computer, television, telephone, and bed are all in the same room.

3. Three different words my friends would use to describe me would be: (a.) Dorky. I agree with them and suspect they think this because of my logical manner and the fact that impressions, while valuable, are not everything to me. (b.) Another word would be: (b.) Thoughtful. I tend to try to work through any ideological disagreement as much as possible, and I often change my evaluations. I suspect they think this because I talk through my concerns and feelings many times. (c.) Unique. This word is actually mundane, but I mean in its true value. I make a conscious effort to define my own way and pay attention to trends and how they affect me.

4. (a.) A recent situation when I got angry was when my bank raised rates on me. While this sounds like a petty thing to get angry about; I felt that it was a personal because I had built loyalty in this bank, and had brought some high balance customers to them. (b.) I responded in a “silent” way, I first looked for other places to bank, and then got revenge in my own way by writing a slew of checks to myself, which cost the bank money to process. (c.) I am somewhat pleased by my response. I felt that it was an adequate way to take out my frustration, and exact a minimally painful revenge for my bank. (d.) I would like to change my response be being less retaliatory, but it is somewhat in my nature. (e.) I'm not really sure of the outcome, since this is currently ongoing. (f.) I have several patterns of behavior that I engage in when I'm angry. If it is a work or school thing, I say nothing for a long time, hoping the problem will resolve it self, then I complain to both friends and coworkers. If it is something that I was loyal to, I take out revenge in the most creative ways possible.