{"id":2099,"date":"2003-02-05T17:57:29","date_gmt":"2003-02-06T01:57:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm2\/2003\/02\/05\/jumped\/"},"modified":"2003-02-05T17:57:29","modified_gmt":"2003-02-06T01:57:29","slug":"jumped","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/2003\/02\/05\/jumped\/","title":{"rendered":"Jumped"},"content":{"rendered":"

I took a leap and withdrew from all but one class this quarter, and all classes next quarter. <\/p>\n

It seems and is a bit drastic, but I really feel that its the best solution to the underlying problem.<\/p>\n

Specifically I don’t fit in here, and well I’ve been trying to make it work and I feel that I just cant make it happen. But I generalize and evade the issue, so let me get specific…<\/p>\n

I moved into Ohio at the cheerful age of twelve, and it took a big nosedive from there.<\/p>\n

I spent much of my fifth grade year, expounding on the mantra “I hate Ohio” It was cheerful stuff! Although I did try to do some good and started a newspaper that published one issue.<\/p>\n

After that half year of fifth grade at IDA Weller Elementary, I changed schools to The Miami Valley School<\/a>, an independent private school. I got my high school degree from there. My graduating class was 43 people or so, and it was a real tight knit community, but I had withdrawn from it a bit, and really retreated into several close relationships with friends.<\/p>\n

I wasn’t the best academically, I just couldn’t stay clicked into my studies, and well being in the closet creates untold amounts of stress. But I got descent grades in a rigorous academic program. I applied to Emerson College<\/a>, Purchase College<\/a>, Barry University<\/a>, and NYU<\/a>. <\/p>\n

I got into Purchase and Barry, both colleges that I hadn’t visited, so I just had to make a decision based on printed information.<\/p>\n

I chose Purchase College, in the liberal arts school, even though I applied to a conservatory, so I was already playing second fiddle to my dreams and what I wanted to do.<\/p>\n

Well, to keep this short, Purchase is a underfunded state school, they’ve got good faculty, but given the cost and what I wanted to be doing they weren’t the same. So I left after one semester, and enrolled at my current university, Wright State University<\/a>. I told myself at the time that I would be only until i figured out what I wanted to do then I’d transfer. Apparently, I have a short memory.<\/p>\n

So, fast forward three years or so. I’m still enrolled at WSU. I was not happy with my first major, so I changed to Theatre Studies, which for many students is reject land from a BFA program. I tried not to think of it this way, but there is only so much you can do. I got involved in Lambda Union, and really started doing things with them. Sometime during the last year or so I made the determination that I wouldn’t stay at WSU for the theatre department, nor the marketing department (I’m a marketing minor), or the philosophy department (minor again). Although the philosophy department is almost enough to keep me here. What was keeping me here was Lambda Union, and I was doing that because I felt a need to improve the organization and the WSU community, essentially I was being altruistic and putting my needs behind those of the the organization.<\/p>\n

Now fast forward again to the past two weeks, I just got ran out of Lambda Union, and well I’ven’t seen the point of any of this, because I wasn’t doing what I was doing for me, but for others, and my motivation to do that was gone, with it went any motivation to get to class etc, etc.. <\/p>\n

Because as I see it right now there is no point to go to WSU anymore, its not what I want to do, and I’m not gonna get out of it what I want to get out of it.<\/p>\n

In other words, my attempts to make lemonade have failed miserably, despite a few good batches, I can’t get a consistent flow of lemonade.<\/p>\n

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So what do I do from here? <\/p>\n

Well I’m gonna take off until Fall 2004 to get my financial situation back in order, and hopefully get into a college that better fits me and get my degree. So I’m gonna start working full time, and probably pick up a second job.<\/p>\n

It feels good, although I’m gonna miss this place and the people, but this is for me. period. And that feels good.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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