The Shawn Standard<\/a>, but its taking a lot of mental strength and techniques to keep this up.<\/p>\nThere are a few guys at work who I’m deathly in lust of, two of them are in relationships and the other two are (maybe?) straight.<\/p>\n
I’ve never really realized how much looking and obsessing over guys I do until I’ve attempted to identify and attempt to reduce the number of times I am looking at a guy severely or lusting. The best technique I’ve used is a Buddhist method about thinking about disgusting parts of their bodies to dislodge the pleasurable thought. It works generally except the lust pops back in, so I’m playing yo-yo with peggish thoughts. (Its derived from a metaphor; when repairing a rotten peg in a peg construction house you push another peg into it, so the building doesn’t collapse. Thus, the thoughts are pegs, and my brain the house.)<\/p>\n
Of course now I am hoping that that guy just falls into my lap without effort on my part, but I’m not holding my breath.<\/p>\n
Of course what I’ve done is replace one obsession namely lusting after physical guys, to lusting after mythical guys.<\/p>\n
So now I’m stuck looking at every little possibility, although not as strongly. Okay so its strange always wishing that the next guy is dating material. At the moment I’ve developed a light crush on the guy on the phone right now…. So who’s next?<\/p>\n
Now I’ve got the question of how far to suppress these desires.<\/p>\n
You know its ironic. One of the things that I’ve spent a great deal of time developing is my homoattracted side, figuring out what it means to be gay and what social rules of the gay world are, etc, etc.<\/p>\n
What a strange paradox, but honestly I feel good about telling part of myself to take a back seat, because I’ve got many other sides that should show through.<\/p>\n
Can anyone blow up a wind to blow these lust clouds away?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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