Its scary to be dependent on medication. I’ve been on Effexor XR… since well Novemberish.<\/p>\n
With the move from my apartment and work schedule change (same week, great fucking planning Nick.) I’ven’t taken it since Friday. <\/p>\n
Four missed Doses; 600 milligrams of chemicals not pumped into my veins. (Save the amount that just gets crapped out.<\/p>\n
Okay, the reason this is a problem is I just blue up at a bitchy voice person. I then called a supervisor over, and as this was happening the voice person hung up. I threw my flag down, when the supervisor asked what happened, I used some choice words to describe the caller in my loudest voice and I got written up.<\/p>\n
This is just a strange problem trying to determine which one is really me? The bitchy person or the polite playful one?<\/p>\n
They’re the same except for some drugs.<\/p>\n
I feel incredibly lonely right now. <\/p>\n
At this very moment I would give about anything to be snuggling with someone who or fuck the over long euphemistic descriptions. I want to be cuddling with Shawn.<\/p>\n
Scary thing is I had to look up his last name today, but thats probably a good thing.<\/p>\n
Yea for the fucking depressing! it reduces me down to wanting those primal things.<\/p>\n
I’ve been chatting with Andy, wanting him to be this drop in replacement for Shawn, but somehow more permanent.<\/p>\n
When the fuck am I going to be over him? I simultaneously hate and love ever meeting him.<\/p>\n
I love just that we got to spend together and that he let me know whats possible.<\/p>\n
I hate it cuz it still hurts.<\/p>\n
I’d cut off my left pinky if it would make this hurt stop for any descent period of time. Fuck, it might even be good as a distraction, but the medical bills and the counseling would be a bitch.<\/p>\n
I’m still stuck pondering that question. Why do we, do I have a demanding desire to have a significant other in our\/my life? Furthermore how do those who don’t seem to mind that they’re single get there?<\/p>\n
In other random ramblings people have been telling me to write a novel, and now I’ve got a topic so….. So I’m going to start doing that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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