WSU<\/a> isn’t it, I know that. CSD has been my good stop gap of a community for the time being, and Christy has been the person who makes that community for me. <\/p>\nPerhaps its just because she’s the one who’s closest in age to me. A majority of my coworkers are middle aged women. While I have a great track record of getting along with middle aged women, I really want to be around people of my age.. (Don’t ask, for some reason me and middle aged women get along, I’ve never figured it out.) Which really means I should be in grad school. Because the high schoolers who graduated a year after me are now seniors in college. <\/p>\n
In some ways I feel like a failure, but I’ve often made a point of succeeding on my own merits and on my own terms. To me it doesn’t matter if someone else thinks I’ve succeeded, it matters if I think I’ve succeeded. (Whether this raises or lowers my “success” rate is unknown. I gander its a dynamic equilibrium. I have the same amount of successes, just different ones in my mind than in other minds.)<\/p>\n
Hell, thats ironic, I’m going on about my need and like for community and then in one stroke, I say “fuck whatever anyone else thinks is success.” I think I need people around to be able to feel that I’m different. I take pride in being different, thinking for myself, being a gadfly, stirring up the pot every once in a while. Thats impossible to do without anyone else around.<\/p>\n
\nPerhaps some of the reason I miss Christy is that I’m pining for a good conversationalist to have philosophical discussions. I’ve honestly considered dumping some of my high horses and going back to WSU to take a single philosophy class. I so desperately want to be able to have an intelligent thought provoking conversation with someone with all the stuff I’m reading, but I don’t want to have to put up with all the pedantic rote classes that someone says I need to take, although I’m not going to retain any substantial information, and if I need to know it I’ll be able to read up.<\/p>\n
\nI know I need to get grounded in a University sooner than later, but I’m wanting to lay my foundation where its not going to be out of place with the others around it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Okay, I just typed the entry “Amish Paradise.” I realized I didn’t finish my thoughts on some things. (Thats what I get for writing it with a friend over my shoulder, KEVIN!) Its about Christy. I feel in some ways like my community I’ve managed to assemble at work has been ripped apart. I understand […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2223","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2223","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2223"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2223\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2223"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2223"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2223"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}