{"id":2285,"date":"2004-01-08T17:21:44","date_gmt":"2004-01-09T01:21:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm2\/2004\/01\/08\/slow-roasting-mental-beans\/"},"modified":"2004-01-08T17:21:44","modified_gmt":"2004-01-09T01:21:44","slug":"slow-roasting-mental-beans","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/2004\/01\/08\/slow-roasting-mental-beans\/","title":{"rendered":"Slow Roasting Mental Beans"},"content":{"rendered":"

I feel empty. Not in a teenagery angst way. Its more like I’m a blank slat, waiting to be painted after dusting off lots of junk.<\/p>\n

I want to be filled but with what I’m not sure. I want to have something enjoyable something lovely in my life to occupy my time and mind.<\/p>\n

Its partially I’m in limbo. CSD is done come Sunday morning and Citi hasn’t come in yet and filled that space. Not that its a job that makes me feel filled, I’m just so used to holding everything at arm’s length and keeping all my projects behind the dam so I can deal with the now, my job and those really important things. I’ve got a damn for no reason and little desire to breach the dam.<\/p>\n

I’ve been screaming to have me time and now that I have it I’m at a loss on how to use it. I need an entertainment director.<\/p>\n

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I feel that I should aim for something bit, but I don’t have the motivations at the moment. I have like four “semi-major” projects that need work. But I’m not sure any of them will fill me.<\/p>\n

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Ack, time to get another coffee that’ll fill me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I feel empty. Not in a teenagery angst way. Its more like I’m a blank slat, waiting to be painted after dusting off lots of junk. I want to be filled but with what I’m not sure. I want to have something enjoyable something lovely in my life to occupy my time and mind. Its […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2285","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2285","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2285"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2285\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2285"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2285"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.inmff.net\/peidm\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}